Sunday, October 02, 2016

My Blog is 10 Years Old Today

و نحن نحب الحياة إذا ما استطعنا إليها سبيلا.

I can't believe I've managed to keep a blog for 10 years...

This blog started as a photo journal. I haven't photographed professionally, or willingly at all, in about a year. It's a shame. I need to get back into the habit.

Today, I'd like to remember those who have left us, and those we had no choice but to leave. There has been too much to come to terms with. This is only some of it. I wish I had something more profound to write today, but this post will simply be a memorial.

Uncle Abdulhamid Al Awadi


Bubbles, 11 years old

Our home in Ruwais

Saturday, October 01, 2016

Glambox! June, July, August, and September.

I know I'm late, but it just hit me. Why not review all the Glamboxes I've been receiving!

For those unfamiliar with Glambox, it's a beauty subscription box in the middle east. One of very few, most of which aren't quite affordable. The subscription box business hasn't quite developed here yet. I can't wait for it to get more interesting!

My lovely friends got me a Glambox subscription for my birthday in June. So far I've received 4 boxes and I'm pretty sure I photographed their contents... I think.

I received a year's subscription, which means each box cost 83 SR, shipping included. I'll be reviewing the personal usefulness and re-purchasability of each product. And the cost of the boxes.

The lack of personalizability (yes, I'm totally making up words today) renders many items totally useless to some people, e.g. me and tanning oil. That's 116 SR wasted. Also, samples which prices I couldn't calculate will go for 10SR as that seems to be the mean.

So here are the boxes chronologically:

June 2016

  • JOHNSON’S® hydration essentials face wipes
    • Full size. retail price 27.5 SR
    • nondrying, very useful.
    • would buy.
  • JIRIZ جرز_ لافندر 28
    • Sanitary pad pouch. retail price 50 SR, can be found at
    • Useful.
    • Would make (Only because I have the skills, if I didn't, I'd buy)
    • full size, retails for 39 SR
    • Would buy
  • Givenchy Hydra Sparkling First step Luminescence Moisturizing
    • Sample size 15 ml. Full size 200 ml retails at 165 SR
    • Sample value 11.7 SR
    • Didn't get to try it yet. Insane shifts at work are making me break out.
  • Jane Iredale - Just Kissed Lip and Cheek Stain in Strawberry
    • Sample. Full size retails for 152 SR 
    • Subtle, really moisturing, been using it instead of lip balm since I got it.
    • If I were a fan of subtle hints of colour, yes. But I'm more of a lipstick person.
Total box value: 99.2 SR, calculating the Jane Iredale at 10 SR.

July 2016


  • Bobbi Brown Long Wear Eye Pencil In Jet
    • Sample size (about half a full pencil) Price approx 49 SR. Ful price retails at 98 SR.
    • Useful.
    • Would not buy again only because I'm a liquid eyeliner girl.
  • Piz Buin SPF 15 tanning oil
    • Full Size, 150ml retails for 116 SR
    • I don't tan. I'm a turn-into-a-florescent-red kinda gal. 
    • Would not buy again.
  • Himalaya Herbals soothing foot scrub
    • full size, 150ml retails for 20.5
    • useful
    •  Would not purchase again. I like manual exfoliation of the feet better, pumice stones.
  • Benefit Fake Up
    • sample size, 0.5g approximate price 13 SR
    • useful. pretty good concealer.
    • would buy again.
    • Sample size, 4ml for approx 16.8 SR (full size is 100 ml retails at 420 SR)
    • I happen to have loved Kenzo Flower scents during college, so this was a lucky choice.
    • Would maybe repurchase.
Total Box Value: 214.8 SR
August 2016
This box I had forgotten to photograph.

  • Johnson’s® Vita-Rich Grape Seed Oil shower cream
    • full size, 250ml retails at 10.75 SR
    • Would buy again
    • Sample size 15 ml, value approx 11.25 SR
    • full size is 200ml retailing at 150 SR
    • Would not buy again, contains SLS
  • Givenchy Prisme Quatuor sample
    • ...which is really just a piece of paper with eye shadow on it.
    • I don't use eyeshawdow.
  • LCN nail polish
    • full size 50 ml retails at 70 SR
    • It is GOOD! didn't chip or peel for three days, and I wash my hands after every patient.
    • Would buy again, it does not contain DBP, Toluene, Formaldehyde, Cetyl Alcohol or Camphor. And is vegan, soy and gluten free.
Total Box Value: 92 SR

September 2016
This box had a special edition cover for the Saudi National Day, with a 30% off your next subscription code.


  • Caroline Herrera "Good Girl" samples
    • Good, but not my cup of tea.
    • Would not purchase.
    • Calculated at 10SR
  • Longlasting Lipstick 21 très chic - essence cosmetics
    • Lovely burgundy shade, sheer, glossy. Really nice.
    • Full size, retails at 13 SR
    • Would buy again.
  • Shea Butter and Verbena Soap - L'Occitane
    • Smells heavenly, not drying
    • Full size 250g retails at 45 SR
    • Would buy again
  • JERGENS BB Body Perfecting Skin Cream
    • Interesting.
    • Would not buy again.
    • Calculated at 10SR.

Total Box Value: 78 SR

The numbers:

So far, I would repurchase 7 out of the 18 items I received, that's a 38.8%. Which is not good. I was hoping for a way to optimize user experience because that isn't even a passing grade.

I received 4 items that I don't even use. I'm not even curious about them due to personal preferences. That's 22% of all items so far.

I'll keep reviewing it until next June. Keep in mind that this is just my personal opinion, but if I had such opinions on the products, wouldn't other people? 

Monday, September 12, 2016


Sometimes it's really difficult to resist the comfort of sinking into apathy. Caring is too painful.

You get too tired of trying to swim. You're pretty sure you know how to swim, and that there is a shore somewhere, but being alone in the water is painful.

But you're always alone in that innermost place where you try to control the storms that keep pushing you under. Regardless of how supportive and loving family and friends are, some places are just for you. And this is one of them. And when you're too tired you tend to forget that you can't fight a storm, you should let it roll off you until better weather comes. You tend to forget how little control anyone has over the universe.

But some storms are man-made and those storms you need to fight. But you've been fighting too long and the shore keeps getting further. Maybe if you stop trying to live you'll find quiet existence in the bottom of the ocean.

Sunday, September 11, 2016

Cautionary Tales

The people you meet are the best cautionary tales.

They are a live reminder of what you don't want to turn into, and the thoughts you have of them are thoughts you never want anyone to have of you.

What do I want to be? I have a vague idea, but i know for sure what I don't want to be.

Monday, March 14, 2016

Twenty Two Weeks Later

I'm still just trying to be myself again. I catch me seeping through the cracks of this new person I've been.

This happened after I decided to just get to know this new person, adapt to her, make peace. But then this new person is about to tweet something preposterous (to my former self), and me interferes to stop her. Me has been doing a lot of interference lately, which isn't necessarily a bad thing. It means I just might be becoming myself again.

It's a very emotional process. And it doesn't help that I'm in pain. I need to sweep me clean from the inside.

Sunday, March 13, 2016

المنظومة الأخلاقية للمستهلك - ٢

حاولت ألاقي مصدر الاقتباس, أو اذا كان جبران حقيقي قال الكلام دا بس للأسف ما لقيت.

“Peace of mind produces right values, right values produce right thoughts. Right thoughts produce right actions and right actions produce work which will be a material reflection for others to see of the serenity at the center of it all.” 

 "راحة البال تنتج القيم الصحيحة، والقيم الصحيحة تنتج الأفكار الصحيحة. الأفكار الصحيحة تنتج التصرفات السليمة والتصرفات السليمة تنتج العمل الذي سوف يكون انعكاسا ماديا للآخرين ليروا السكينة في بؤرة كل ذلك ".

الفرق بين التكلفة, السعر, القيمة ,و القيمة المالية, و من يحدد التكلفة، السعر, القيمة, والقيمة المالية للأشياء باستخدام شنطة شانيل ٢.٥٥ نموذجا:

  • التكلفة: سعر المواد و اليد العاملة، و الأدوات، و المصنع، الخ.
    • تكلفة الشنطة ١٠٠٠$
  • السعر: يحدده المصنّع، حسب الماركة، العرض و الطلب, الخ.
    • سعر الشنطة: ٤٨٠٠$ عام ٢٠١٥
  • القيمة: الأهمية الشخصية، أو التاريخية، أو الاجتماعية. مما يجعل بعض المشتريات رموز للطبقة الاجتماعية.
    • قيمة الشنطة عامة: عالية. الأسباب: السعر, الماركة, الجودة, الرمزية.
    • قيمة الشنطة لناشطي حقوق الحيوان: عالية, لكن لن يتم شرائها. الأسباب: قتل الحيوانات لصناعتها.
  • القيمةالمالية: السعر المتوقع للسلعة حسب قيمتها و أهميتها.
    • القيمة المالية للشنطة في ارتفاع منذ الخمسينات الميلادية, و سعر اعادة البيع عالي, كما أن سعر السلعة الجديدة في ارتفاع مستمر كل سنة.

 و هذه مقارنة للقيمة الماليةلبعض الأسهم مقارنةبالذهب و شنطة شانيل ٢.٥٥  حيث تثبت الشنطة أنها استثمار مستقر.

هل نستطيع قياس جميع الشنط الماركات على شنطة شانيل ٢.٥٥؟


قيمة لوي فويتون في تدني مستمر عند المستهلك الصيني. ليش؟ نتيجة تشبع السوق, فالمشتري لا يشعر بأي خصوصية اذا كان كل شخص يقابله عنده نفس الشنطة, و انتشار البضاعة المقلدة. وشخصيا أنا شايفة اننا وصلنا دي المرحلة كمان. فكروا في الموضوع بدي الطريقة: اذا انتي مسافرة من السعودية و شايلة شنطة لوي فويتون, ايش احتمال انو وحدة شايلة شنطة لوي فويتون تكون جنبك في باص السعادة؟

(لغيرالجداويين, "باص السعادة" هو الباص اللي ينقلكم من المطار للطيارة)

ألاحتمال كبيرجدا. لدرجة كل ما أسافر مع بنات خالتي و لوي فيتوناتهم, اللي جنبهم دايما شايلة لوي فيتونها.

توجد عوامل شخصية كثيرة ممكن أن تمنع الشخص من اقتناء سلعة ذات قيمة عالية, مو لأته في رأبهم قيمتها متدنية, لكن لوجود عوامل غير أخلاقية في صناعتها. مثال: الألماس. شفتو "بلود دايموند"؟ هو دا السبب.

طيب من فين جات قيمة الألماس اساسا؟ 
الألماس مو نادر, التورمالين, السفير ,و الياقوت أندر. و مو أقسى مادة على وجه الأرض. الألماس حجر يلمع, حطوله سعر غالي وقالولنا انه قيمته غالية. و احنا صدقناهم.

كم سلعة دفعتوا فيها مبلغ محترم من عرق جبينكم دخلت في صناعتها ممارسات غير أخلاقية؟ هل ممكمن تغيروا عاداتكم الشرائية اذا اكتشفتوا أن الشركة اللي بتشتروا منها تعامل العاملين بطريقة غير انسانية؟

فلوسكم هي وقتكم. هي الفترة من حياتكم اللي أعطيتوها لعملكم و أعطوكم فلوس. احنا بنصرف حياتنا.

Wednesday, March 09, 2016

المنظومة الأخلاقية للمستهلك و اجراء التجارب على الحيوانات

اجراء التجارب على الحيوانات أحد أهم الطرق التقليدية لتجربة المواد لمعرفة صلاحيتها للاستخدام الآدمي. من الأشياء اللي تمت تجربتها على الحيوان:
  • مواد التجميل
  • الصابون/الشامبو
  • الأطعمة/السموم
  • الأدوية

اليوم حابة اتكلم عن تجربة المواد التجميليه و الصابون على الحيوانات. زمان كنت أحاول اتجتب استعمال أي مواد تمت تجربتها على الحيوانات, بس دحين قررت انو ابدا ما أستعمل المواد التجميلية اللي: 
  • تمت تجربتها على الحيوانات من الشركة المصنعة
  • اذا كانت الشركه المصنعة ما تجرب على الحيوانات لكن الشركة الأم (المالكه للشركة) تقوم بتجارب
  • اذا كانت الشركه المصنعة ما تجرب على الحيوانات لكن تبيع في الصين (الصين تجبر أي شركة تبغى تبيع فيها تسلم عينات لاجراء تجاربهم الخاصة على الحيوانات)
  • تحتوي على بعض المواد اللي صالحة للاستهلاك الآدمي ومنتشرة بس بصراحةما ابغى احطها على جسمي: 
    • Sulfates
    • parabens

حاولت ألاقي اذا السعودية عندها قانون زي الصين بس ما لقيت, اذا أي أحد وجد مصدر رسمي اذا سمحتو ارسلولي هو على الايميل الموجود في نهاية الصفحة.

لمن الواحد يبحث عن المنتجات المطابقة للوصف أعلاه في الانترنت يكتشف انو اغلبها غير موجودة في  البلدان العربية و لازم نطلبها من برة. و دي مشكلة تانية عشان الأثر الكربوني* الكبير للعملية دي. فحاولت اجمعلكم الشركات الموجودة في دول الخليج اللي ما تعمل تجارب على الحيوانات.

الشركات اللي ما تعمل تجارب و غير مملوكه لشركات تعمل تجارب:
  • Lush
  • Milani
  • Anastasia Beverly Hills

الشركات اللي ما تعمل تجارب و  مملوكه لشركات تعمل تجارب:
  • Nyx
  • Urban Decay
  • The Body Shop
  • BareMinerals

من ابسط الطرق لمعرفة اذا كان المنتج لم تتم تجربته على الحيوانات وجود الأرنب

بعض المصادر لمعرفة الشركات الصديقةللبيئة:

تطبيق للأندرويد:
تطبيق للايفون
اذا لقيتوا أي شركات صديقة للبيئة في السعودية, باريت ترسلولي على الايميل في نهاية الصفحة.

*Carbon footprint

Monday, February 29, 2016

Intrusion On The Universe

Have you ever noticed how some men take up as much space as they could? They intrude on the universe.

They spread their arms out, instead of keeping them by their side, and never keep their legs close even. Expanding your personal space eats up other people's personal space.

Also, whatever happened to being non-threatening? This display may make you feel strong, but it makes other (especially women) feel reluctant to trust you with your thoughtless intrusion on the universe.

Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Zendium Toothpaste!

EDIT: Allergen warning: Contains milk and egg proteins.

I love it when companies send me hygiene products! I was just sent some toothpaste to try.

Unilever has just launched Zendium in Saudi Arabia, though it's been around for ages in Scandinavian countries. I've been considering trying it and lo and behold they sent me a pack!

According to their press release "Zendium is the first toothpaste to harness the power of enzymes and proteins to boost your mouth’s natural defences". Also, it is formulated sans sodium lauryl sulphate, which is something very difficult to find in this country. There's SLS in EVERYTHING, shampoo, soap, toothpaste. I personally think it's too harsh, especially when you have dry hair and skin.

So here's the pack they sent me. Quite fancy. They even sent me orange juice for "The Orange Juice Test", as Zendium shouldn't make orange juice taste bad after brushing your teeth. Guess we'll find out in the morning!

Also, I snapchat, or at least I'm trying to. I just can't seem to get it, you know? It's Soumzie in case you're actually interested in my sporadic snaps.

Monday, February 08, 2016

A Number of Things.

I have decided to compile a chronological list of all the times I have sustained a serious injury. A serious injury is any injury that has impaired my mobility and /or my ability to work.

Age 16:
-Dislocated right knee. 4 weeks in cast.
Age 26:
-Right knee injury, tripped on stairs in front of the supermarket. 4 weeks in brace.
Age 28:
-Right knee injury, slipped on ice. Impaired mobility for 2 weeks.
Age 29:
-Concussion, car crash. Three months and still recovering.
-Broken right big toe and sprained left thumb, fell. 6-8 weeks for the toe, 3 weeks for the thumb. I'm in week two now.

I've apparently been getting clumsier since 26. Also, inclined to fall/injure my right knee. Not cool.